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Yeah. Time enough has passed. I'm sort of debating my next course of action right now concerning a certain someone. I need to be myself and strong and say what's on my mind. Damnable mind. Too long passed without a word said. Then bam, there we are again, only it's like a sequel. Bigger, more exciting, more action, more confusion, and a cliff-hanger ending. I have certain sinking sensations I just have to float through, and not let myself get down about. Man, it's nice to have a reserve of emotional strength, sometimes, to fall back on. I didn't have this before, and I gotta shine on. This time, I gotta try to make a difference. I can't be shy and afraid and indifferent. I have a will, damn it. And it will be done. She's too fucking cool and special and keen to go another 8 or so months without talking to, looking into her eyes, losing and finding myself for just a moment there. And I think it means something damn it. I'm resolved. I suffered in silence long enough. I'm ready to make sense of this and I need her help to do it.