so everyone has left again, i dont speak to many people anymore. and its cold and depressing out. i miss that warm fuzzy feeling when you are in love with someone.
i was freaking out yesterday. i was teetering on the edge of what might have been complete insanity and i didnt know what to do. so i drove to maine to hug my cousins for 2 hours. yes i hugged them and cried for 2 hours about how i dont understand anything. and then i drove home.
and i still feel all weird, and julie... Read More
damn, that means I have to cancel the Fung Wah tour bus of Chinese nationals I had scheduled for this weekend... Their going to be pissed. and there's nothing worse that a bus full of irate Chinese business men and their cameras. Did you know that the Chinese have been buying new cameras from the Japanese, which are so advanced that they are a camera, a phone, a PDA, all in the shape of a vibrating johnson... it's really amazing. and the whole thing runs on just a single solar cell. however if the sun isn't out it can also be recharged through some type of friction-related motion, like an in and out motion.
but I seem to be rambling now...
i had so much to do today. i didnt do anything. i went to visit luna with her new baby girl Hailey. and then i got a call from katie from NH and she was like "im drinking beers in south station....come join me" at about 1 and its not 11:15 and im home kicking my own ass for not doing anything.
she called me to bitch about how her fuck buddy met someone else and how her friend kissed her and she thinks life is terrible.
then she asked me whats wrong, why i sound upset, and i said that i am lonely. and she said that i am surrounded by loving people, and i said it doenst matter. im fucking lonely. and i said that... Read More
i need to go into a room and scream and punch things and cry and rip my hair out and slash myself up and slash up the walls and the carpet and smash the things that are in the room with me.
i love random phone calls from people i never expect to talk to again. although i say that everytime i talk to her, and she always calls me rmonths later
and if you were straight, I'd nail you too.
obviously I'm not getting my fill of something--naked women probably...
oh well.