I went crazy while I was away. Like actually insane. I'm surprised I'm still here to be honest. Now whenever I get thoughts similar to those I was having then, I freak out.
I haven't told anyone what happened. They either won't believe me or won't see the seriousness of it.
I'll try and explain, if thats ok.
yerr im rad actually.
just realised i could probably talk to you on msn but i keep forgetting it exists bhahaha.
got a job interview at satrosphere waay :] im well excited.
im watching dancing on ice purely just on case gareth gates falls.
I went through the same things. For about 4 years (fromt he ages of 16-19), I would go in and out of that state. At it's worst I woud burn and cut myself and I actually psychosomatically convinced myself that I was a vampire (sounds funny saying it but it was a bad time). And I physically became a photophobe. My eyes would turn red and bleed if exposed to the sun. Was horrible. I would also drink and all of that too. I have the scars on my arms as proof of that happening. And I would deny what was happening to most everyone, but then brag about my scars and conditions to other people. You need to find a really professional therapist and not a doctor with his nose in the psychological textbook.
If ever you need someone to talk to just let me know.
So I slipped back into my old ways...
I don't know how someone like me can ever expect to have any sort of relationship. I guess people see me as being too fucked up. Too much to handle. I'm sorry. I wish I could just go back in time and erase all the shit thats happened. I wish I didn't have a big idiotic mouth.... Read More
20 to 7 friday morning got a phone call of my girl, phone went off in her pocket she was pilled of her head gettin it on with some lad, yeah she said sorry like, make me feel better? pschh
yeah just thought my shitty story might make you feel better
I stood in HMV today for ages staring at the blu-ray and HDDVD displays. To be honest I'm a little disappointed. They made them out to be intense, hi-def, wonderful things but I didn't really see the big deal. They just looked the same as normal dvds on normal tvs to me. HD has to be one of my biggest pet... Read More
I hope everything looks way up for you soon dearie.
You've been a grander pal than I could deserve over this long span of time
I'm not saying all that just because I madly want to do you either
*laughs* I had to insert the random rude lascivious uncomfy flirting for old times sake after all
Well let's see.... we're in July now! christ how time flies.
A couple of things have happened since I last updated. Scott and I broke up (yawn)
I still haven't been able to find a job.
My hair is blue again.
I moved flat.
That's it really. Most of my time is spent like this:
hey hon hows you
saw you in town the day but i was on a bus lol
did you dye your hair red again or was i seeing things if so it looked cool
hope things are fine and well
will have to catch up on msn sometime if you are ever on it lol last few times i said hello it was to an empty comp lol
Hey, I have hayfever.
University is over for summer and I still haven't found a job. It is very tempting to go stay in a different city over summer and just work there.
I'd love to improve my photography skillz (or lack thereof) over the summer as well. I'm looking for some kind of photographer's assistant job or something but so far zilch.
just realised i could probably talk to you on msn but i keep forgetting it exists bhahaha.
got a job interview at satrosphere waay :] im well excited.
im watching dancing on ice purely just on case gareth gates falls.
whats new then?
xx
If ever you need someone to talk to just let me know.