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Is manipulation really evil?
Its hard to show the people who you really care about and respect that you are honest to them when they objectively witness you manipulate a situation.
How does a social shade such as my self really convey to people that they are infact interacting with the real me?

And old friend called me on the phone today while I was at the skatepark. He asked me what I had been up to; my only responce was "The same old shit". But its not true I have changed a bit and grown as a person, I have cured a few of my phobias and yet I really didn't want to share.
Its like that chip on my shoulder that has been weighing me down for so long has finally crushed me; I have found that when this happens life does not cease or slow or become anymore repetitive than it ever was, no. It just that the things you do mean less.

All my problems are not really problems at all, The true is that I'm not a complete person.
I never really grew up, yet I raised my self.
I never really had parents, yet I have family.
I have always needed someone to take care of me, even if only false love.

What I seek is not answers or solutions, just what it is that completes me.