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I would like think that I'm a goal oriented person, I don't see really how I couldn't be.
The thing is that I hardly ever reach those goals that are oh so important for my life/me at the time, and the ones I do reach are trivial.
Its like a scratch at the back of my throat everytime I near the completion of something that I have been trying todo for along time.
I don't know what it is that made me want to relay this feeling I have, other than I have it RIGHT NOW, which is odd considering that the only goal I could even close to consider having right now is simply to wait my broke-ness to go away.
But this feeling anyways, its like absolute destruction of all modivations and virtue that I have at that moment to drive me twards my goals.
I think thats what disipline is (or would be for me if I had it) to beable to cause that scratch to jump into udder failure, to subside.