I didn't think it was possible but the week has managed to actually get worse. My friends condition continues to worsen more and more each day. His family is torn apart just as though another hurricane katrina had hit. I saw him in the hospital the other day... He didn't look like the best friend that I grew up with. I don't know if any of you reading this understand the feeling you get when you lose someone like that but im sure everyone has some understanding of loss of a loved one. It makes the world seem so empty and bleak. It takes your breath like a wave of ice or a hard shot to the stomach. When i saw him thats what it felt like, like i had been hit by a bus. And all i can do is sit by and watch someone who is as close as a brother to me slowly die. hmm.. other then my friends condition I have nothing else to write extensively about in here. I guess im just keeping this thing updated because I have extra frustrations to take out so why not write them out in here. For those who are reading *if anyone other then the few that i know of* thank you for takeing the time and I wish you all well...