Life took a downhill road the last few days.
1- the job
the job is half fun half not. the people I work with in the back never talk to me and it becomes as though no one really wants to. Im scared to talk to the girls up front at the end of the day because I have spent 6 hrs silent, or nearly silent with the dogs. Some dogs arent just mean. some want to rip my face off. Some want to hit mein the head with cage doors. No I dont like it there. but I begin to question, is it there I dont like... or everywhere? Im looking for a new flexible job. but what Am I going to do?
2- the ferret
peanut went to get his distemper shot yesterday and had a reaction. They didnt know what to do, and I was at work. I got out of work early and got to the vet to meet up with dave only to find peanut in a laundry hamper in the back o fthis place lying in blood and vomit. not a cage, A HAMPER. I freaked out and we rushed him to a REAL vet. He was dying. My car broke down for stupid reasons half way there leaving us crying on the side of the road. daves mom got there a while later and we ended up paying a second time for a huge vet bill. But he saved peanuts life so it was worth it. So FUCK MAPLE SHADE ANIMAL HOSPITAL. and yay dr Danzen.
3- the weight
I am not happy unless I am at a certain weight. If im not there i am miserable. I hate what I look like. if im there im like YEA IM SEXY! I eat like crap sometimes. I eat huge greasy portions of fried crap, and then dive into dessert. I have such a slow metabolism, that I an gain 5 pounds in 2 days. That is sick. When I watch my weight I can have it hover at one healthy weight for months, but I slip...ALOT. and now its nearing my birthday, and im going to be a moron all week. The last few days have been bad becasue I havent been eating right, and work is stressing me out, and I havent had time for the gym. I have to go out in a bathing suit and I dont feel like I will be able to. (and no I dont starve myself, its quite the opposite if you go out to eat with me, im like yea ill prolly just get a salad, then BOOM veggie burge and fries. I eat it all then bitch about it.)
So there it is. Life not so fun with all this shit. Without a job no money. with a job, stress, weight gain, no time for gym (health) or pretty much anything good. So school is comming, can I keep the job then too? Prolli not. Ill keep you posted.
I feel like shit.
1- the job
the job is half fun half not. the people I work with in the back never talk to me and it becomes as though no one really wants to. Im scared to talk to the girls up front at the end of the day because I have spent 6 hrs silent, or nearly silent with the dogs. Some dogs arent just mean. some want to rip my face off. Some want to hit mein the head with cage doors. No I dont like it there. but I begin to question, is it there I dont like... or everywhere? Im looking for a new flexible job. but what Am I going to do?
2- the ferret
peanut went to get his distemper shot yesterday and had a reaction. They didnt know what to do, and I was at work. I got out of work early and got to the vet to meet up with dave only to find peanut in a laundry hamper in the back o fthis place lying in blood and vomit. not a cage, A HAMPER. I freaked out and we rushed him to a REAL vet. He was dying. My car broke down for stupid reasons half way there leaving us crying on the side of the road. daves mom got there a while later and we ended up paying a second time for a huge vet bill. But he saved peanuts life so it was worth it. So FUCK MAPLE SHADE ANIMAL HOSPITAL. and yay dr Danzen.
3- the weight
I am not happy unless I am at a certain weight. If im not there i am miserable. I hate what I look like. if im there im like YEA IM SEXY! I eat like crap sometimes. I eat huge greasy portions of fried crap, and then dive into dessert. I have such a slow metabolism, that I an gain 5 pounds in 2 days. That is sick. When I watch my weight I can have it hover at one healthy weight for months, but I slip...ALOT. and now its nearing my birthday, and im going to be a moron all week. The last few days have been bad becasue I havent been eating right, and work is stressing me out, and I havent had time for the gym. I have to go out in a bathing suit and I dont feel like I will be able to. (and no I dont starve myself, its quite the opposite if you go out to eat with me, im like yea ill prolly just get a salad, then BOOM veggie burge and fries. I eat it all then bitch about it.)
So there it is. Life not so fun with all this shit. Without a job no money. with a job, stress, weight gain, no time for gym (health) or pretty much anything good. So school is comming, can I keep the job then too? Prolli not. Ill keep you posted.
I feel like shit.
paleenchantress:
pretty you ! 