lilred88

i hate my life
the one girl i fall totally in love with i cant have cos shes dieing of a brain tumor jesus christ she told me last night. ive never felt anything so strong in me life. truely. im losing it. cos i love her and i told her that im not gonna leave and she just says "i dont want to break your heart".
what will break my heart is her not letting me in
i want to be with her till the end
i want to stick it out. i want to be there with her through it all. i fucking love everything about her and if that means watching her die then ill be there fucking holding her hand!
i thought it was rough losing my grandmother and about to lose my popi
but being in love with her has changed everything. i want her i need her and i aint goin to leave her
she makes me the person ive always dreamed of being with, someone worth loving, worth building a life with, worth counting on. god i love her.
im terrified of losing her
and not to some stupid bull shit
but litterally
gone from my life and gone from this world
i love her and i will never leave her side.

this is the hardest thing ive ever even thought about but my heart wont back down so neither shall i
fuck this may kill me but i aint gonna give up
fml
im hers till the end
no matter what
im hers

god damn it why tho whyyyy