lilmisssunshine

so many emotions right now. i don't even know where to begin.

i started seeing someone recently... it was going amazingly. until this past week, spoke with him on wednesday, he had lost his phone... haven't heard from him since. guess i can take a hint. though i have no fucking clue what went wrong. bah, confusion.

today a guy i was with for a while back home (still remain pretty close friends) texted me letting me know that he was in the emergency room... he had had a mini-stroke today. i feel as though 24 year old males shouldn't have to worry bout such things... he said he's feeling okay but his face is numb... so, hoping for the best. he has two small daughters and is such an amazing guy and father... can't stop thinking about him.

school starts tomorrow. i am so anxious. i'm excited to meet the other msw students and nervous all at the same time. new school. new city. new professors. new networks. craziness.
good news is i only have classes on mondays and tuesdays with the occasional saturday seminars. the trimester doesn't technically start til wed so i won't have any regular classes this week. just a small orientation thing tomorrow morning. should be a nice way to ease into things...

i think i'm going to try mediating before bed tonight... i've been having such a hard time clearing my mind lately. i just need to reach a place of calm. and breathe. sigh.
i also need some more ink... i miss the feeling of the needle against my skin...