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I just realised something very important. I was looking at my online modeling portfolio and I realised I missed modeling. Since I got the first part of my SG application accept that is all I have thought about. Dont get me wrong I still want to be a SG more than anything. I use to model for fun. Now I just think about will this set be good enough to make me pink. It is sad. I have forgotten why I started all of this. I need to shoot again, not for a perfect set but for that one perfect picture. The picture that tells a story, the picture that makes people go DAM and makes me feel beautiful. If i can recapture the passion I once had maybe that will make my next SG shoot attempt even better. Maybe if I get my passion back,,,,,,,,,,,,


Just had to add a little note to this blog.

Last night I posted a thread in one of the modeling sites I go to looking for a photographer to help me with a shoot for SG. I can not believe how fucking horrible people can be. Every reply was filled with SG bashing. All complaining about SG sueing people. I feel no sympathy. SG makes everything really clear in all the paper work we have to sign. Also you can ask the staff questions if you arent sure. If you still break the rules you deserve what you get. I wish all these "arty" people would get a fucking clue and stop harrassing me for wanting to be a SG.

One asked me why would I want to be a SG.

I already knew the answer but I wouldnt waste my time telling her, but I will tell you guys.

I love to model, I love turning people on, I love that I am helping bring beauty to this world(not saying I am beautiful but more of a beautiful picture), SG is the biggest and the best so why wouldn't I aim to be part of the best? Who the hell ever aims for second? But finally the main reason I want to be a SG is for you guys. I have never met a better bunch of people. No one judges me here, I have been warmly embraced by all of you and for that I say thank you.