lilknottygirl

well, i am drunk...off of one beer. look what motherhood has done to me. i also cheated on being a vegetarian tonite and ate a patty melt. i am going to bad vegetarian hell where i will have to watch cows being slaughtered for all of eternity. i really want to be a vegetarian but it's just so hard. sometimes i just want to throw some bacon in a pan and have a blt all ready to go in 10 min instead of chopping up 4 different vegetables, making rice, cooking tofu, etc. it's hard to throw vegetarian meals together quickly. and i like meat, some of it anyway, so i'm denying my natural inclinations to honor my principles. this month has been really bad. i've eaten turkey, lamb (which was absolutely disgusting, so at least that'll never happen again) and now beef. sob. i feel so weak. and thanksgiving hasn't even hit yet. this was so much easier last time i did it. when are the cravings going to stop? at least it's only happening when i go out or when i go to someone else's house for dinner, i have managed to control myself when i'm at home. i even resisted pork chops-which i love-when my roommate made them. i'm getting there, i just haven't been able to go cold turkey like i did last time. geez, having a baby sure messed me up.