Today I increase the dosage of tyrosine to three 500mg capsules, twice a day. I just had my morning dose, will take the second one in a few hours. Then later I will up the tryptophan to three 500mg tablets in the afternoon, and three at bedtime.
This is a high dose of tyrosine I just took about an hour ago, and I'm feeling a little jittery and scattered, like I would feel after a double espresso. Not wired, in fact I feel like I want to go lie down and take a nap. My mental acuity seems compromised right now. I think this is too much. I still feel a bit depressed, thinking about what is ahead for me today: I could do something productive but I'd rather sleep. I've got to go scrounge a free meal and spend the last of my food stamps on groceries...
I'm going to go lie down...
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OK. I just flushed the rest of the tyrosine down the toilet, along with the 5-HTP that I took three weeks ago and did not help me feel any better. 1000's of milligrams of tyrosine is too much to take, it can cause high blood pressure, I just felt too uncomfortable. And taking the lower doses I can't say conclusively if it did anything.
I tried taking this stuff, tried paying attention to my feelings and sensations and thoughts and perceptions while I was on it, and it's just impossible to say if any of it helps or not. Sure my mood may be slightly better one day, but the change isn't dramatic or persistent enough to be able to say that the remedy is what made the difference. And the fact is that I am just too fucking poor to spend $12 to $25 on a bottle of pills at the health food store to try and help my depression, if I'm not really sure it helps or not.
I still have a little of the tryptophan left, I'll finish it off today and tomorrow. Then next week I will maybe try the Cymbalta for a week, as my friend Michael suggested. I got the prescription, I have 90 20mg capsules in my medicine cabinet, and it's free since the city is paying for it, so I guess I will give it a shot.
OR, I will see if the doctor will prescribe me the female hormones next week, and try that first before the Cymbalta...
This is a high dose of tyrosine I just took about an hour ago, and I'm feeling a little jittery and scattered, like I would feel after a double espresso. Not wired, in fact I feel like I want to go lie down and take a nap. My mental acuity seems compromised right now. I think this is too much. I still feel a bit depressed, thinking about what is ahead for me today: I could do something productive but I'd rather sleep. I've got to go scrounge a free meal and spend the last of my food stamps on groceries...
I'm going to go lie down...
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OK. I just flushed the rest of the tyrosine down the toilet, along with the 5-HTP that I took three weeks ago and did not help me feel any better. 1000's of milligrams of tyrosine is too much to take, it can cause high blood pressure, I just felt too uncomfortable. And taking the lower doses I can't say conclusively if it did anything.
I tried taking this stuff, tried paying attention to my feelings and sensations and thoughts and perceptions while I was on it, and it's just impossible to say if any of it helps or not. Sure my mood may be slightly better one day, but the change isn't dramatic or persistent enough to be able to say that the remedy is what made the difference. And the fact is that I am just too fucking poor to spend $12 to $25 on a bottle of pills at the health food store to try and help my depression, if I'm not really sure it helps or not.
I still have a little of the tryptophan left, I'll finish it off today and tomorrow. Then next week I will maybe try the Cymbalta for a week, as my friend Michael suggested. I got the prescription, I have 90 20mg capsules in my medicine cabinet, and it's free since the city is paying for it, so I guess I will give it a shot.
OR, I will see if the doctor will prescribe me the female hormones next week, and try that first before the Cymbalta...
Have as happy a day as you can!