lilblueducky

i swear to god the male species is so fucking "special". so me and my ex...still broekn up. but his "girlfriend" broke up with him after like 3 days. and you know were still friends. hes one of my best friends, if not THE best. and as a dutiful friend, i was there for him. he wasnt exactly sad, just kinda like wtf. and theres obvious tension between us. and i dont know if it was a mistake persay, but i fucked him last nite. we've been spending a good amount of time together these past few days...and idk but hes starting to see what hes missing i guess. he still loves me, this i know. i still love him. as long as i can hold off and let things play itself out, we'll probably end up back together. its that whole fucking destiny thing. never really believed in it till i met him when we were 16...god that was so long ago. wow. i feel old. 4 fucking years this summer.

i need to stop being so angry at the world.

i lost 15 lbs. 25 more to go. ok, maybe only 20. but still. last year i was so much thinner and i'm almost back down to that. ooh i need a bathing suit for the summer.

i dont think i;ve ever written so much in this thing. i mean no one reads it anyway, right?

i cant get enough of Tilly and the Wall. oh man. so fucking good.

oh well. im cold. im gonna go cuddle under my blankets all alone. haha