i reactivated my account, cause i decided i loved this site way too much.
so much has been going on in my life. i guess i'll just start with the most recent and move backwards...
so my boyfriend of 7 months and i haven't exactly split, but we're on a break. which is as good as being broken up, but you know, not final. it hurts so much. and seven months seems so little, but at the same time, its more than that. we've known each other since we were 16. we talked as friends but he always had a girlfriend...and right before we both graduated high school in 03, we became close again, and started hooking up...we dated from september to november, but we were too immature to handle the boston-nj distance. he thought i was cheating on him. in the end we ended up back together this april. and had been inseperable ever since. my grandma died this summer and since i was so close to her, it really messed me up. i didnt realize though, until october that i had a serious problem and needed help. this depression has driven a huge rift between me and matt, and has driven us to separation. i sucks, cause i know im young but i really love this guy. i really hope everything works out. it sucks too, cause hes like my best friend.
but he came up to boston with me (cause i had a car and was driving from nj to boston, and back to nj again for thanksgiving). and on the way home, it was raining and ugly and horrifcally trafficky. and the woman in front of me stopped short, so i had to stop short, skidding into her bumper and doing no damage. as as soon as i breathe a sigh of relief, a fucking lincoln navigator drives straight through the back of my car... its totaled and now i have no automobile, which SUCKS
i hate boston. i honestly hate it. i'm transferring schools so i can just go home, and be near the people i love, cause everyone up here, with the exception of a few (ie chuck aul and matt roth), suck so hard. the whole reason i didn't transfer during my freshman year was because i wanted to make sure i actually tried and made friends...and i thought i did. honestly, i did. but upon returning here, i find that the girls that i made friends with just didnt want anything to do with me. fucking shitty.
wow. i hate a lot of stuff today. i'm sorry to the -2356 people that read this.
<3meg
so much has been going on in my life. i guess i'll just start with the most recent and move backwards...
so my boyfriend of 7 months and i haven't exactly split, but we're on a break. which is as good as being broken up, but you know, not final. it hurts so much. and seven months seems so little, but at the same time, its more than that. we've known each other since we were 16. we talked as friends but he always had a girlfriend...and right before we both graduated high school in 03, we became close again, and started hooking up...we dated from september to november, but we were too immature to handle the boston-nj distance. he thought i was cheating on him. in the end we ended up back together this april. and had been inseperable ever since. my grandma died this summer and since i was so close to her, it really messed me up. i didnt realize though, until october that i had a serious problem and needed help. this depression has driven a huge rift between me and matt, and has driven us to separation. i sucks, cause i know im young but i really love this guy. i really hope everything works out. it sucks too, cause hes like my best friend.
but he came up to boston with me (cause i had a car and was driving from nj to boston, and back to nj again for thanksgiving). and on the way home, it was raining and ugly and horrifcally trafficky. and the woman in front of me stopped short, so i had to stop short, skidding into her bumper and doing no damage. as as soon as i breathe a sigh of relief, a fucking lincoln navigator drives straight through the back of my car... its totaled and now i have no automobile, which SUCKS
i hate boston. i honestly hate it. i'm transferring schools so i can just go home, and be near the people i love, cause everyone up here, with the exception of a few (ie chuck aul and matt roth), suck so hard. the whole reason i didn't transfer during my freshman year was because i wanted to make sure i actually tried and made friends...and i thought i did. honestly, i did. but upon returning here, i find that the girls that i made friends with just didnt want anything to do with me. fucking shitty.
wow. i hate a lot of stuff today. i'm sorry to the -2356 people that read this.
<3meg