lilamysunshine

I'm sitting alone eating breakfast. I was supposed to be having a client meeting while eating breakfast, but she stood me up. It's OK though, it was all worth it to go for network spinal analysis this morning. I love that stuff. It's like crack but in a healthy way.

I'm at the level of care whereby I am able to recognize old patterns for what they are -- old patterns -- and then decide whether I want to continue with those patterns or create entirely new ones that suite me better. At this point in time, anything could happen. I am at the place where I get to CHOOSE how I am going to respond to things instead of just sitting back, watching it happen, and wondering why I'm doing it this way again and what good I think will come of it.

This is also in line with doing things the easy way. I think I'm going to go with doing what I WANT in life, as opposed to doing what I ASSUME will elicit the consequenses I desire. Having a particularly overdeveloped sense of cause and effect, I often over-analyse and then stop myself before I even begin. I think I won't do that. I think I'll just do what I want, and keep doing what I want. This will be a constant struggle to know what I want, but that is a risk I am willing to take. And sometimes things just seem clear.