It's 9pm Sunday night - I have so many things going around in my head right now, I don't know where to start.
I feel like I'm at a bit of a cross-roads in my life. But instead of a cross-roads, it's more like a roundabout with soooo many exits, it's pretty confusing the say the least
So, my plan for the moment is to do nothing. Bide my time. Wait for the right moment.
Whatever I decide, I need to be 100% clear on the direction I take and be happy and confident with that. Until then, I will float along with plenty of options. The clock is ticking but not that fast so I think I have a little time to make the right decisions.
I am thinking that while I'm on meds and know I couldn't cope without them right now, I'm also feeling strong and contented on my own, as a single person. I don't feel the need to be a part of a couple just to feel my life is worth living. Of course it would be great to be in a loving relationship where I am wanted and loved etc., but my previous relationships haven't exactly been 50/50 and have ended with me feeling more alone and miserable than when I'm single so I'm appreciating my own time and space right now
I also hear so often about friends that aren't happy in their relationships and I think how hard it must be for them, particularly when they have children with their partners. One thing I've always had to do when splitting with a partner is to sever all ties - it's the only way I've been able to deal with breaking up. But when you have kids with someone, you can't do that eh. I remember when I was pregnant with Pip, I really didn't want Stinky in my life and knew that him having any influence was going to be difficult, yet at the same time, he was Pip's Daddy so I had no choice at that time. Of course I would have put up with him for the sake of my baby but still, it would have proven difficult had things turned out differently. Now I have another chance and while my methods may or may not be 'conventional', I will do my best to make sure they are 'right' this time.
I don't even know if the above makes sense to any of you, but it does to me
Some of my friends out there in SG land are going through a bit of a hard time at the moment - I won't name them; they know who they are. I will be praying for each and every one of you before I go to sleep tonight.
Oh, and Ryan, I am hoping for the best results possible for you this week - please take care and try not to get too stressed. Your mum and dad and doggies love you very much!!
Emma
I feel like I'm at a bit of a cross-roads in my life. But instead of a cross-roads, it's more like a roundabout with soooo many exits, it's pretty confusing the say the least
So, my plan for the moment is to do nothing. Bide my time. Wait for the right moment.
Whatever I decide, I need to be 100% clear on the direction I take and be happy and confident with that. Until then, I will float along with plenty of options. The clock is ticking but not that fast so I think I have a little time to make the right decisions.
I am thinking that while I'm on meds and know I couldn't cope without them right now, I'm also feeling strong and contented on my own, as a single person. I don't feel the need to be a part of a couple just to feel my life is worth living. Of course it would be great to be in a loving relationship where I am wanted and loved etc., but my previous relationships haven't exactly been 50/50 and have ended with me feeling more alone and miserable than when I'm single so I'm appreciating my own time and space right now
I also hear so often about friends that aren't happy in their relationships and I think how hard it must be for them, particularly when they have children with their partners. One thing I've always had to do when splitting with a partner is to sever all ties - it's the only way I've been able to deal with breaking up. But when you have kids with someone, you can't do that eh. I remember when I was pregnant with Pip, I really didn't want Stinky in my life and knew that him having any influence was going to be difficult, yet at the same time, he was Pip's Daddy so I had no choice at that time. Of course I would have put up with him for the sake of my baby but still, it would have proven difficult had things turned out differently. Now I have another chance and while my methods may or may not be 'conventional', I will do my best to make sure they are 'right' this time.
I don't even know if the above makes sense to any of you, but it does to me
Some of my friends out there in SG land are going through a bit of a hard time at the moment - I won't name them; they know who they are. I will be praying for each and every one of you before I go to sleep tonight.
Oh, and Ryan, I am hoping for the best results possible for you this week - please take care and try not to get too stressed. Your mum and dad and doggies love you very much!!
Emma
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Hope you are alright missus. You are doing the right thing waiting because if you go down one of those paths unsure then it wont be any better. I hope you ahve some time to figure things out and do what is best for you.
thats the shop and ive been naughty and ordered them! hehe
i think you waiting is a good idea hun.....it ensures you will be 100% making the right decision in the long run. it would be so easy to just get carried away and rush in...it means you will have no regrets surrounding it.