I hate crashing emotionally!
This fucking sucks! This kinda starts in the middle of an ongoing saga with my apparent "friends" and how they treat me. Long story short, was horribly bullied at school and I feel like I the fucking punching bag within my circle of friends, not physically but I'm the verbal punching bag. I'm not as quick whitted as other and my put downs are shit.
Anyways, after a few runs in with people over different things, I've given up on organising anything with certain people because it's all one way.
And now to what's happened today.
A "friend" and his wife (who seem to only fucking call us when they need people to look after their two ADORABLE dogs that we love so so much) are watching all of Quantum Leap from start to finish and as she hasn't seen the end and he has, I sent him this message to ask if it was correct. He said on his status that he HAD seen it and remembered it but I had an attack of the "may be" he didn't say that exactly... Well, you'll see...
Now, I may be a bit vulnerable at the moment (Moment? haha) but seriously, why the fuck speak to me like that? I could be a bit sensitive to the way he speaks to me because to be honest, he is a blunt cunt and doesn't actually care if or when he offends people. He constantly calls everything "Gay" even tho my wife and my best mate is Gay and he gets really offended by it and it is a slur. His reason for doing it is "I used it all through school and have Gay friends who don't care", WELL DICKHEAD! there are Black people that accept being called "N****R" in the ghetto way but others will just take it as a insult, this is exactly the same but flat out refuses this and will not change a single thing, even to make one person happy which I think is just a little, well actually just straight up cunty and really shit. I mean, least he could do is at least not say it around him or where he can see it (facebook etc) but he won't.
Anyways, I am generally feeling so so down at the moment and I don't think I need people like this around me.
I've got issues with losing friends as I spent most of my teenage years alone due to being beaten up by "my own and only friends", so I always did whatever it took to keep people as my friends, so telling people to fuck off out of my life and meaning it, is not very easy in the slightest.
Anyways, really rambling now.
I miss being happy
:!:! EDIT:!:!:! I've noticed a mistake, wonder if anyone else will? DOH!
This fucking sucks! This kinda starts in the middle of an ongoing saga with my apparent "friends" and how they treat me. Long story short, was horribly bullied at school and I feel like I the fucking punching bag within my circle of friends, not physically but I'm the verbal punching bag. I'm not as quick whitted as other and my put downs are shit.
Anyways, after a few runs in with people over different things, I've given up on organising anything with certain people because it's all one way.
And now to what's happened today.
A "friend" and his wife (who seem to only fucking call us when they need people to look after their two ADORABLE dogs that we love so so much) are watching all of Quantum Leap from start to finish and as she hasn't seen the end and he has, I sent him this message to ask if it was correct. He said on his status that he HAD seen it and remembered it but I had an attack of the "may be" he didn't say that exactly... Well, you'll see...
Now, I may be a bit vulnerable at the moment (Moment? haha) but seriously, why the fuck speak to me like that? I could be a bit sensitive to the way he speaks to me because to be honest, he is a blunt cunt and doesn't actually care if or when he offends people. He constantly calls everything "Gay" even tho my wife and my best mate is Gay and he gets really offended by it and it is a slur. His reason for doing it is "I used it all through school and have Gay friends who don't care", WELL DICKHEAD! there are Black people that accept being called "N****R" in the ghetto way but others will just take it as a insult, this is exactly the same but flat out refuses this and will not change a single thing, even to make one person happy which I think is just a little, well actually just straight up cunty and really shit. I mean, least he could do is at least not say it around him or where he can see it (facebook etc) but he won't.
Anyways, I am generally feeling so so down at the moment and I don't think I need people like this around me.
I've got issues with losing friends as I spent most of my teenage years alone due to being beaten up by "my own and only friends", so I always did whatever it took to keep people as my friends, so telling people to fuck off out of my life and meaning it, is not very easy in the slightest.
Anyways, really rambling now.
I miss being happy
:!:! EDIT:!:!:! I've noticed a mistake, wonder if anyone else will? DOH!