lighthammer

So I had a thought just now.

Reading thru this site, reading about all the members, I realized that I am not a complex person.

I'm not simple, but I am pretty straightforward. I like what i like. I like movies, video games, good books, cheap wine, my local comic book shop, rewatching a movie I love for the umpteenth time, computers, being on the internet, and falling in love. Hanging with my friends, and just generally trying to keep my life as uncomplicated as possible.

Maybe it's because I spent all those years so entrenched in mental illness that I revel the fact that my life has a balance to it. I dont like chaos, I dont like loud noises. I dont like crowds or noisy places or bright lights. I dont like it when people are sad, I dont like it when my friends are upset with me. I dont like things that make me worry.

What I dont like is being alone. That is the one thing that's really been eating away at me lately. I'm lonely. I need someone special in my life. I know they say that your suppose to be happy being single, but I'm not goddammit. I miss companionship, I miss intimacy. I miss SEX. Oh boy, do I miss sex. 6 months is a long time.

Well, anyway, that's my little rant. I dont think im' a boring person. I just dont think i'm all that complex either. Maybe I'm to open with my emotions. Maybe I need to get a dark brooding look about me (to do that though, i'd probably have to lose all my cool movie and comic book shirts.) Chicks dig the brooding silent type.