I'm 22 years old.
Which makes me an adult. Which means that I should do adult like things. Now I'm pretty juvenile, i'll admit..I collect toys, have a love for all things fantastical, and well, dont alwasy function very well in the real world. But I do have a steady job ive been at, I save money, I drive a trunk that I own, and I generally do adult like things.
So why the hell do I still suffer from all the fears I had as a child?
I was suppose to be housesitting for a friend of mine this week, so I figured I'd stay the night there. He's got this huge TV, so I went and rented a whole slew of movies, got all the junk food I would need, and settled down for a weekend of recoverign from this cold and just generally lazing about. But I couldnt' sleep there, because, and I swear to god, I couldnt' be at his house. Alone. Why? How can a 22 year old still be afraid of the the things that go bump in the night? Why cant I sleep unless I have my libby with me (a stuffed animal Ive slept with since I was 4) Why cant I seem to conquer these childhood fears? Fear of the dark, fear of being alone, im' afraid of everything. My Dad says it's because of all the horror movies I watch, but that's not it..I was afraid of everything before I got into horror. What is it? At what point do we outgrow these childish fears? Will I EVER outgrow these fears.
This is so embarassing.
Which makes me an adult. Which means that I should do adult like things. Now I'm pretty juvenile, i'll admit..I collect toys, have a love for all things fantastical, and well, dont alwasy function very well in the real world. But I do have a steady job ive been at, I save money, I drive a trunk that I own, and I generally do adult like things.
So why the hell do I still suffer from all the fears I had as a child?
I was suppose to be housesitting for a friend of mine this week, so I figured I'd stay the night there. He's got this huge TV, so I went and rented a whole slew of movies, got all the junk food I would need, and settled down for a weekend of recoverign from this cold and just generally lazing about. But I couldnt' sleep there, because, and I swear to god, I couldnt' be at his house. Alone. Why? How can a 22 year old still be afraid of the the things that go bump in the night? Why cant I sleep unless I have my libby with me (a stuffed animal Ive slept with since I was 4) Why cant I seem to conquer these childhood fears? Fear of the dark, fear of being alone, im' afraid of everything. My Dad says it's because of all the horror movies I watch, but that's not it..I was afraid of everything before I got into horror. What is it? At what point do we outgrow these childish fears? Will I EVER outgrow these fears.
This is so embarassing.
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btw I finally checked out all the info I could about this Freddy vs. Jason... Im excited. but I can tell already that Jason is going to win. The trailer shows jason as being dominate and ultimatley more powerful... bah!! but its still a cool trailer until the end when they bring out their cheap one liners like "go to hell" and "place your bets" I hope the soon to be deceased in this movie don't act like they know who freddy or jason are .. that would definatley ruin the mystique of the movie... just my thoughts on the thing.
o i am back yaaaaaaaaaaaie! *throws a party for herself* there was no way i was going in a hospital no matter how much my parents wanted me to. . .i went to a freinds for a few days and now feel abit better. . .
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its not embarassing. . .