Random thoughts.
I got a lot on my mind so this ones a long one.
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Back in the 80s the New Jersey State House of Representative considered making Bruce Springsteens Born to Run the official state song. With lyrics like this, I cant imagine why it didnt pass.
Baby this town rips the bones from your back
Its a death trap, its a suicide rap
We gotta get out while were young
Well run till we drop, baby well never go back
I have a white knight complex.
The other day a women in Kroger who looked a lot like Frida Kahlo on an 8-day crack binge started yelling at me for stealing her cart. I of course, did not take her cart and when she realized this she just walked away. No Im sorry, nothing. Pissed me off, she could have at least said she was sorry.
Ive been having a lot of nightmares lately. They usually involve be being chased or in places where all the people are just not there. Last night I had one about being trapped in the town I grew up in. I was the only one there, the entire town was disserted. It was very Twilight Zone. Im sure its just the stress of finding another job/money thing. Or it might be a tumor.
People at work are being way to nice to me. People who Ive never even talked to before are coming up and making small talk. Everyone calls me by my name, it very disconcerting.
Yesterday I developed some film for a girl who was putting her modeling portfolio together. She paid some guy 200 dollars to take a bunch of shity photos. Most of them werent even in focus. The guy also talked her in to doing some artistic pictures as she put it. He told her it would be good for her portfolio. Maybe its just me but I dont see how having her posed spread eagle on a twin bed with beer bottles and dirty clothes in the background is going to help her modeling career. I told her she should get her money back.
Last night I ended up watching one of those nanny shows on TV. Why you ask? I dont know I was strung out on Ambien and the remote was on the table. Anyhoo, it was a family 3 or 4 completely wild kids. A pack of wolfs could have done a better job at raising these kids. When they got mad they would spit in their parents faces. One of them kept breaking glass. Another one threw a brick at the nanny or the mom, I dont remember which. These kids had zero respect for there parents. It was completely the parents fault that they had got to that point. Its called discipline people.
Im waiting for the nanny blooper show where the nanny loses it and starts slapping the kids and shaking the baby.
Ive dropped another ten pounds, but it doesnt show. Where is it coming from?
I met a really cute girl who reminds me of a Russian prostitute.
There is someone Im looking forward to seeing, but Im apprehensive about it as well.
For as much as a want that significant other in my life, Im starting to feel hard wired into brief encounters and isolation.
I havent the slightest idea what to do with my life. Its frustrating to see people much younger than me who already have their life set. Why is the path so easy for some people and so hard for others?
If I had to choose between eating my weight in Jell-O or eating my weight in pudding, I would have to go with the Jell-O. I greatly prefer pudding but that would be a lot of pudding and theres always room for Jell-O.
That's me in the corner
That's me in the spotlight
Losing my religion
It seems ironic that it took me losing my religion for me to find my faith.
If I were a midget I would have a guaranteed career in porn. I could be the ugliest midget to ever walk the planet but someone would still hire me to do porno. I had a friend who converted to Judaism once. I wonder how hard it would be to convert to midgetism?
Im in a really weird fucking mood. Maybe its spring fever, I doubt it, cuz Im not hot.
Theyre women who find bald men extremely attractive. Where do I find these women?
Ive been watching a lot of David Cronenberg movies lately. I cant say that I find any of the movies he wrote to be that great, but he does have an interesting mind. I just watched Shivers. Its the movie that the writer of Alien admitted years later that he got most of his ideas from. Its about a parasite that drives people insanely horny. Its kind of a zombie movie, but instead of the people craving brains, they crave nookie.
In the time it took you to read this journal entry, you and I are just a little closer to our death.
I got a lot on my mind so this ones a long one.
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Back in the 80s the New Jersey State House of Representative considered making Bruce Springsteens Born to Run the official state song. With lyrics like this, I cant imagine why it didnt pass.
Baby this town rips the bones from your back
Its a death trap, its a suicide rap
We gotta get out while were young
Well run till we drop, baby well never go back
I have a white knight complex.
The other day a women in Kroger who looked a lot like Frida Kahlo on an 8-day crack binge started yelling at me for stealing her cart. I of course, did not take her cart and when she realized this she just walked away. No Im sorry, nothing. Pissed me off, she could have at least said she was sorry.
Ive been having a lot of nightmares lately. They usually involve be being chased or in places where all the people are just not there. Last night I had one about being trapped in the town I grew up in. I was the only one there, the entire town was disserted. It was very Twilight Zone. Im sure its just the stress of finding another job/money thing. Or it might be a tumor.
People at work are being way to nice to me. People who Ive never even talked to before are coming up and making small talk. Everyone calls me by my name, it very disconcerting.
Yesterday I developed some film for a girl who was putting her modeling portfolio together. She paid some guy 200 dollars to take a bunch of shity photos. Most of them werent even in focus. The guy also talked her in to doing some artistic pictures as she put it. He told her it would be good for her portfolio. Maybe its just me but I dont see how having her posed spread eagle on a twin bed with beer bottles and dirty clothes in the background is going to help her modeling career. I told her she should get her money back.
Last night I ended up watching one of those nanny shows on TV. Why you ask? I dont know I was strung out on Ambien and the remote was on the table. Anyhoo, it was a family 3 or 4 completely wild kids. A pack of wolfs could have done a better job at raising these kids. When they got mad they would spit in their parents faces. One of them kept breaking glass. Another one threw a brick at the nanny or the mom, I dont remember which. These kids had zero respect for there parents. It was completely the parents fault that they had got to that point. Its called discipline people.
Im waiting for the nanny blooper show where the nanny loses it and starts slapping the kids and shaking the baby.
Ive dropped another ten pounds, but it doesnt show. Where is it coming from?
I met a really cute girl who reminds me of a Russian prostitute.
There is someone Im looking forward to seeing, but Im apprehensive about it as well.
For as much as a want that significant other in my life, Im starting to feel hard wired into brief encounters and isolation.
I havent the slightest idea what to do with my life. Its frustrating to see people much younger than me who already have their life set. Why is the path so easy for some people and so hard for others?
If I had to choose between eating my weight in Jell-O or eating my weight in pudding, I would have to go with the Jell-O. I greatly prefer pudding but that would be a lot of pudding and theres always room for Jell-O.
That's me in the corner
That's me in the spotlight
Losing my religion
It seems ironic that it took me losing my religion for me to find my faith.
If I were a midget I would have a guaranteed career in porn. I could be the ugliest midget to ever walk the planet but someone would still hire me to do porno. I had a friend who converted to Judaism once. I wonder how hard it would be to convert to midgetism?
Im in a really weird fucking mood. Maybe its spring fever, I doubt it, cuz Im not hot.
Theyre women who find bald men extremely attractive. Where do I find these women?
Ive been watching a lot of David Cronenberg movies lately. I cant say that I find any of the movies he wrote to be that great, but he does have an interesting mind. I just watched Shivers. Its the movie that the writer of Alien admitted years later that he got most of his ideas from. Its about a parasite that drives people insanely horny. Its kind of a zombie movie, but instead of the people craving brains, they crave nookie.
In the time it took you to read this journal entry, you and I are just a little closer to our death.
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it involves butter. 'nuff said
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And yea...Missy and I'll be seeing you Saturday!