lightbulbjack

So, what makes the workday go better? Codeine

I went to the doctor this morning. I have a sinus infection/bronchitis/ strep throat. Yeah me. I spent most of the day with throbbing earaches, one in each ear. Yeah me again. They still hurt but its not as bad.

Sharing time sharing time (insert music here)

One of the things that Im most afraid of is losing my hearing. When I was a wee lad I had major hearing problems of the course of many many years. I was almost completely deaf for close to a year back then.

My memory is choppy at best, long story, but I remember being deaf, and the possibility of being like that again terrifies me. This had lead to some of my anti-social tendencies. I tend to avoid noisy places, bars and clubs for example.

I tell you this because I spent most of the day with plugged up ears. Everything sounded like it was underwater. I could still mostly hear everything but its got me freaked out a bit.

I feel like my hearing loss as it is now makes it difficult at times to interact with people. The thought of not hearing anything at all seems like the worst kind of isolation. I can smile and nod my head but be lost to the world. I have to do that too much as it is now, and then have to explain to people that Im not really a dick, Im not bored with what you are saying and Im not pissed off even though it may look like I am, I just cant hear what your saying.

Just a little freaked, life goes on.

I am starting to feel better, so that good. Time for more codeine.