This is a long entry. Please read it, I'm seeking advice.
I dont know but Ive been told, Eskimo pussy is mighty cold.
I just got done watching Full Metal Jacket. I love that movie. Ive always been of the opinion that you either get Stanley Kubrick or you dont. I havent met many people that are so-so on his movies. Doctor Strangelove and A Clockwork Orange are brilliant pieces of cinema. Having said that, I have to admit that I have yet to sit though 2001: A Space Odyssey in one setting.
I went to the video store to rent Full Metal Jacket. I looked around but couldnt find a copy on DVD, so I asked the girl behind the desk. She tells me that they dont carry it on DVD, but that she can order me a copy and it will be in, in 4 to 6 weeks. I say but I want to watch it tonight. Im thinking, why the fuck would I order it and wait 4 to 6 weeks, when I can stop at the Best Buy across the street from my place and buy it. She was puzzled why I didnt want to wait so long. They had a VHS copy so I got that but the tape has been played a billion times so it not the best quality. I vary rarely rent VHS anymore. There is something you cant get on DVD; it sucks because a lot of the older movies on VHS are in really bad shape.
Today was great. Today started off great, then sucked, but Ill get to that in a moment. It was 61 DEGREES.
The wind was blowing hard all day. I heard it got up to 25mph gusts. I went to the park behind my apartment and just stood in the wind. I problemly looked nuts but I didnt care. The wing was blowing so hard that you could feel it pushing you back.
I felt like I was recharging my batteries. It felt so good to be outside. Between my suck-ass job and winter I was really starting to feel worn down. The past few weeks have felt like Ive been running on fumes.
I had to get a muffler of my car, that sucked, but I got my taxes so it wasnt too bad. My car still need like 200 more dollars worth of work, but its nothing I need right away. I had a Shamrock shake. Went to eat at Mongolian BBQ and got a free lunch, who says theres no such thing. The cook kept burning my food so I talked to the manager and he cooked my food and told me lunch was on them.
Went and saw the new Ashley Judd movie, Twisted. She is so fucking hot in this movie you wouldnt believe it. No nudity, danm.
So what could send me in to a spiral of blue mood you ask? Come on say it out loud, Ill wait.
Im glad you asked. It was my roommate. He has applied for a job in Chicago. That means if he gets it he moving. We just moved into this place. I can barely afford to live here now. There is no way I can afford to keep this place if he goes. I dont want a roommate.
The thing that pisses me off about this is that he doesnt seem to see that this is going to have a major effect on my life too. He has asked me to come with him, and Im giving it serious thought.
Hes my oldest friend. We have known each other for about 12 years. We have lived together for almost 5 years. No were not gay, not theres anything wrong with that. It has been a common misconception.
I love him like my brother. We have been through some major life shit together. Hes the one person I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that will always have my back.
The selfish part of me doesnt want him to get the job. The best friend is pulling for him; its a great job. I feel like Im stuck in the middle. Until he finds out if he will get the job both of our lives are stuck in a holding pattern.
Ive met a lot of great SG people from around here. Im starting to make friend with some of you. Its so typical of me to finally start to put down roots, only to just move on.
My original reason for staying here in Lansing was my family. I have a sister and two nieces who live here, and a brother and another sister who live an hour away. Ever since my mom died a few years ago Ive become more and more disconnected from them. My brother lives in my moms house, I havent gone down and spent any time with him since she has been gone. Going there is too painful for me. Things have changed, but that is always going to be my moms house. Ive talked to him about why I dont come to the house, he says he understands, I dont know.
Im ready for a change in my life. Not long ago I ventured back into the dating world. I had not been out with someone in years. Its a long story for another time. I met this beautiful funny girl who helped me remember to not take life so seriously. I think I could have loved her, if we had more time. It just wasnt meant to be. We are still friends; Im glad of that.
I dont know what to do. I know Im done with watching my life float be. Im ready to put the pedal down and see what this bad boy can do.
Any thought on my predicament?
Im thirty minutes into an Ambian haze, sorry for misspells and what nots.
I dont know but Ive been told, Eskimo pussy is mighty cold.
I just got done watching Full Metal Jacket. I love that movie. Ive always been of the opinion that you either get Stanley Kubrick or you dont. I havent met many people that are so-so on his movies. Doctor Strangelove and A Clockwork Orange are brilliant pieces of cinema. Having said that, I have to admit that I have yet to sit though 2001: A Space Odyssey in one setting.
I went to the video store to rent Full Metal Jacket. I looked around but couldnt find a copy on DVD, so I asked the girl behind the desk. She tells me that they dont carry it on DVD, but that she can order me a copy and it will be in, in 4 to 6 weeks. I say but I want to watch it tonight. Im thinking, why the fuck would I order it and wait 4 to 6 weeks, when I can stop at the Best Buy across the street from my place and buy it. She was puzzled why I didnt want to wait so long. They had a VHS copy so I got that but the tape has been played a billion times so it not the best quality. I vary rarely rent VHS anymore. There is something you cant get on DVD; it sucks because a lot of the older movies on VHS are in really bad shape.
Today was great. Today started off great, then sucked, but Ill get to that in a moment. It was 61 DEGREES.
The wind was blowing hard all day. I heard it got up to 25mph gusts. I went to the park behind my apartment and just stood in the wind. I problemly looked nuts but I didnt care. The wing was blowing so hard that you could feel it pushing you back.
I felt like I was recharging my batteries. It felt so good to be outside. Between my suck-ass job and winter I was really starting to feel worn down. The past few weeks have felt like Ive been running on fumes.
I had to get a muffler of my car, that sucked, but I got my taxes so it wasnt too bad. My car still need like 200 more dollars worth of work, but its nothing I need right away. I had a Shamrock shake. Went to eat at Mongolian BBQ and got a free lunch, who says theres no such thing. The cook kept burning my food so I talked to the manager and he cooked my food and told me lunch was on them.
Went and saw the new Ashley Judd movie, Twisted. She is so fucking hot in this movie you wouldnt believe it. No nudity, danm.
So what could send me in to a spiral of blue mood you ask? Come on say it out loud, Ill wait.
Im glad you asked. It was my roommate. He has applied for a job in Chicago. That means if he gets it he moving. We just moved into this place. I can barely afford to live here now. There is no way I can afford to keep this place if he goes. I dont want a roommate.
The thing that pisses me off about this is that he doesnt seem to see that this is going to have a major effect on my life too. He has asked me to come with him, and Im giving it serious thought.
Hes my oldest friend. We have known each other for about 12 years. We have lived together for almost 5 years. No were not gay, not theres anything wrong with that. It has been a common misconception.
I love him like my brother. We have been through some major life shit together. Hes the one person I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that will always have my back.
The selfish part of me doesnt want him to get the job. The best friend is pulling for him; its a great job. I feel like Im stuck in the middle. Until he finds out if he will get the job both of our lives are stuck in a holding pattern.
Ive met a lot of great SG people from around here. Im starting to make friend with some of you. Its so typical of me to finally start to put down roots, only to just move on.
My original reason for staying here in Lansing was my family. I have a sister and two nieces who live here, and a brother and another sister who live an hour away. Ever since my mom died a few years ago Ive become more and more disconnected from them. My brother lives in my moms house, I havent gone down and spent any time with him since she has been gone. Going there is too painful for me. Things have changed, but that is always going to be my moms house. Ive talked to him about why I dont come to the house, he says he understands, I dont know.
Im ready for a change in my life. Not long ago I ventured back into the dating world. I had not been out with someone in years. Its a long story for another time. I met this beautiful funny girl who helped me remember to not take life so seriously. I think I could have loved her, if we had more time. It just wasnt meant to be. We are still friends; Im glad of that.
I dont know what to do. I know Im done with watching my life float be. Im ready to put the pedal down and see what this bad boy can do.
Any thought on my predicament?
Im thirty minutes into an Ambian haze, sorry for misspells and what nots.
VIEW 6 of 6 COMMENTS
syh:
I'm just going to be a Yes Man here & agree with the esteemed Sorcha & NoPantsDave & madwill.
oninotaki:
Go to chicago with him if he gets the job, I am in a very similiar roommate situation as you and I say go for it.