lielietruthlie

okay, i stopped hating myself...i have nothing new going on, had my heart broken, got slutty, got over broken heart, kinda, got unslutty, dropped out of school, quit job, re-enrolled in school, changed major, begged for job back, dated 3 girls, all way to young for me, but at least all legal, talking to female who is actually my age, got into 2 fist fights, one with roommate, one with stupid friend, made up with both people, went to concert, watched tv alot, played ps2 alot, dropped out of crappy might as well be non-existant "band", decided i suck anyway, masturbated alot, got depressed, got high, decided never to get high again, got drunk, decided to get drunk more often, watched movies from the 40's and pretended to be a movie snob, went to sleazy bar and was one of only 3 people under 35 there, got depressed again, ate alot, gained 10 lbs, i was under 300 at one point, my poor fat ass, made myself puke, exercised alot, lost 3 lbs?, went out with sister and her friends, felt bad that i have no friends of my own, slept alot, masturbated more, watched more movies, slept with girl who i have no feelings for, felt horrible and wanted to kill myself, developed feelings for her i guess, almost slept with another girl who i did have feelings for, she blew me off, but swears shes into me, wrote horribly long letter to ex-girlfriend, she will never talk to me again im sure, am single again, masturbated alot, slept alot, ate alot, drank alot, watched tons of movies, played tons of ps2, broke another cell phone, asked girl out from work, i think she thinks im creepy, i think i think shes right...im alive and well, and thats cool! being alive rocks ass!