so the past few weeks have been majorly shit and aint promising to get better.
reasons to be totally fucked off:
- fucking the last few months of school up
- being accused of hitting a kid.....seriously this is a BIG problem and is not good. my life is that job and to be accused of something like that when you have a duty of care is heartbreaking
- lost 2 very good mates
- been put on medication for depression-yes im taking them and no i wish i wasnt
- loosing the man i love!!
- having to move out of my parents coz i cant afford to live there...so my debts will not be paid off....the last 7 months of working all the hours under the sun have been in vain!
- not being able to meet up with friends coz ive been a stupid cow in the past
- being incredibly lonely
- being given unbelieveable targets for the coming year
i have discovered one thing....well 2 really.
in amongst all the shit of life there are a few diamonds and i have found a northern pair! two people have been rocks for me in the past week, theyve said some of the nicest things (while giving me a firm, needed, talking to 
) theyve shown me that im not alone and that theres a reason to get through things.
these two people are priceless and are amazing, i dont think i'll ever be able to tell them enough.
so im gonna plod on..its really hard to find a reason too, ive spent the last few days being unable to get out of bed without giving myself a stern talking too, going into school is shit to, allegations can ruin someones career straight away, the rumours have started with the parents already.
these tablets better start working soon, not seeing much point to anything atthe mo.
except this
When things are bad, everything seems to happen all at once. I've wondered if maybe it works like that so that there isnt so much bad shit the rest of the time. Maybe I'm talking crap though.
I really hope that everything turns out for the best for you hon, I really do (((huge hugs)))