I feel stagnant
Decaying at this very moment
I want to scratch my eyes out
but that's already been done.
I sit here with a bloodied face
and various other appendages
and I don't care anymore.
Appearance is a state of mind.
I almost lost my hearing the other day
And I was scared out of my wits
and I'm no longer afraid
Not brave, just not caring.
Done with this world
at least for now.
I don't like where I am
the choices I've made
the view i have of myself
and of life
I'm stuck with no way of changing
I've grown up and now I can't run away.
I cry for help and no one listens.
I'm strapped to the gills with all the frills
Society would give me an A+
But I hate that I have no life
To give a dollhouse to those who don't understand
My Intentions.
Mid-life crisis at 24.
I drive my SUV
And I get so disgusted
That a lot of times I wish
It could crash itself.
The fact is that I'm never going to change.
I'll get up tomorrow
Or at least when I look like me again
And I'll keep on keeping on
Plugging through the corporate machine
With a purpose that isn't my own.
But some days reality just hits me.
All this striving to achieve and change
Have left a bigger hole than was there before.
And the echo is greater every time.
Decaying at this very moment
I want to scratch my eyes out
but that's already been done.
I sit here with a bloodied face
and various other appendages
and I don't care anymore.
Appearance is a state of mind.
I almost lost my hearing the other day
And I was scared out of my wits
and I'm no longer afraid
Not brave, just not caring.
Done with this world
at least for now.
I don't like where I am
the choices I've made
the view i have of myself
and of life
I'm stuck with no way of changing
I've grown up and now I can't run away.
I cry for help and no one listens.
I'm strapped to the gills with all the frills
Society would give me an A+
But I hate that I have no life
To give a dollhouse to those who don't understand
My Intentions.
Mid-life crisis at 24.
I drive my SUV
And I get so disgusted
That a lot of times I wish
It could crash itself.
The fact is that I'm never going to change.
I'll get up tomorrow
Or at least when I look like me again
And I'll keep on keeping on
Plugging through the corporate machine
With a purpose that isn't my own.
But some days reality just hits me.
All this striving to achieve and change
Have left a bigger hole than was there before.
And the echo is greater every time.
VIEW 9 of 9 COMMENTS
Yup, just in time for winter weather; use the tractor as a generator time. I mean really... it does make perfect sense. A generator on WHEELS no less.
Frankly, I'm sort of excited about it. I was a little nervous about all the locals being terrible at the town meeting and hating them all, but they were super sweet and welcoming. And none of them made any comments about my being tattooed. Not stating the obvious is a quick and dirty get out of jail free card in my books.