So I left the Air Force a month ago today, and it seems that even though I was only in there for a relatively short amount of time, everything is different. I perceive my friends differently because they are the same. They are all doing the same go no where jobs, in this dead hole town. The town went from being a decent place to hang out to being filled with annoying frats and sororities. I miss my life before the military, I miss life IN the military, I miss my friends, and I miss me.
I met someone while in the service who I instantly fell in love with. We became engaged and I was ecstatic. She was very SG. Not necessarily in the pin up model way, but she was very beautiful and comfortable with herself and modifications, her beliefs, and her love for me. She was perfect, or least for me. But when I visited her before I left for home she cut off both the engagement and our relationship saying the cliche line of "You're an amazing guy and anything I would hope for, and it's not you, I swear it. It's me".
I still love her, but in a completely different sense. I love her because she showed me what I want. I love her because she showed me what I deserve... and what I didn't. I will find my alternate other, my pierced princess, and most importantly my adventure partner. It wont be today, and it probably won't be tomorrow, but I know she's out there, and I know I can make her happier than she ever thought possible.
As for my friends and apparent differences, maybe it's not them but me. Maybe I am different. Maybe I expected something when I came back to this small town that it just couldn't live up to. It will get better, and if it doesn't there is nothing holding me back from living my life to the fullest.
So I am propositioning anyone interested. If you want to adventure, explore the unexplorable, and live life to the fullest, let me know. It can be as a friend, a lover, a soul mate, an enemy, a stranger, or as an unknown. Let's just live.
I met someone while in the service who I instantly fell in love with. We became engaged and I was ecstatic. She was very SG. Not necessarily in the pin up model way, but she was very beautiful and comfortable with herself and modifications, her beliefs, and her love for me. She was perfect, or least for me. But when I visited her before I left for home she cut off both the engagement and our relationship saying the cliche line of "You're an amazing guy and anything I would hope for, and it's not you, I swear it. It's me".
I still love her, but in a completely different sense. I love her because she showed me what I want. I love her because she showed me what I deserve... and what I didn't. I will find my alternate other, my pierced princess, and most importantly my adventure partner. It wont be today, and it probably won't be tomorrow, but I know she's out there, and I know I can make her happier than she ever thought possible.
As for my friends and apparent differences, maybe it's not them but me. Maybe I am different. Maybe I expected something when I came back to this small town that it just couldn't live up to. It will get better, and if it doesn't there is nothing holding me back from living my life to the fullest.
So I am propositioning anyone interested. If you want to adventure, explore the unexplorable, and live life to the fullest, let me know. It can be as a friend, a lover, a soul mate, an enemy, a stranger, or as an unknown. Let's just live.
drocks:
I got out of the Marines in January and I kinda know how you feel. Ive moved back home (which is a college town) and all my friends are either married and moved away or doing the same ole crap i joined to get away from. Im going to school and bartending but life seems a little bit more lonely without the Corps or my good old friends around. and the lady situation is kinda a bummer for me right now as well. but im keeping my head up and rolling with it. your right, one day we both will find that special someone but until that day..ive decided to just have fun and roll with the punches.
liayn:
It's what I'm trying to do. It is an odd assimilation. I still stand at parade rest when I'm not doing anything, I still say "sir" an annoying amount, and I still want to have a meticulous eye to details. I live in a town with three colleges in it and we used to have a world record for "most bars per square mile", so it is a good party town, but I feel different at the bars. I would rather sit down and enjoy my drink or play pool more often than flirting or interacting with people I don't know and have no interest too. Maybe things will get better, if not I'll just move until I find where I'm happy. Until then it's just trying not to get too down or hard on things.