leylei

right i have posted many times today, and this day has been the heaving chest of emotion that taunts with it's .....stuff, for the lack of a better word,

and now i feel ready in the quiet of the night to scream and curse the world for it's unforgiveble.....stuff

i am extremely highly strung, a complete odd ball, my sense of humour is more likely to include singing fish, and bambi impersonators, than knock knock?

i come across as someone acting dumb, who's actually smart but i'm just dumb, i'm real good at bluffing "a talented performer"

i'm a trouble maker who can avoid the backlash's of my actions with the speed an agilty of someone who is used to havin avoid the backlash of their actions

i'm a kitten in a bath tub when riled up, all hiss spit an scratch
but at the end of the day i'm still a kitten, but i will give you a nasty nip if you give me the chance

the queen of contradictions, princess of minipulation.

i very cool thing said about me once "she will chill the blood in your veins, but you'll love it while she's doing it"

i'm not so fukin vamp believe me, it came from a time when i was highly misunderstood, but it was cool so i've held on to it and even though that person never saw the tender flesh and the beaten burnt scars above my heart and never knew the weak spots in my armour, hidden under the twine of hatred and anger, i remind myself of it, cause i can pretend to be that person i once projected that person onto others, you can convince anyone of anything,
so i figure when you need to go and be strong, black makeup, nasty smile, walk outside and tell your self your the kween of evil

i'm actually one of the most sweetest nice people alive, but they don't know that



i want to eat my own yucky sucky bloody heart aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, i silent scream,
are you thinking
a) this person sux
b)this person it's full of themselves
c)i hate this person, attention seeking ho
if any of the above don't comment just leave *points to door* go on, i like attention seeking it's a hobbie, everyone has to have a hobbie
are you thinking
d) wot a tortured poetic soul she has
e) she is beautiful, i must posess her
f) this person is a genius and must be saved from her life
then you can stay, if you have already said lovely things bout me becoming a suicide girl, you have gone through enough and can say something bizzare and of your chossing