lexxus

In a really shitty mood right now. UM....In short:

Bakesale kicked some wicked ass. Much props to Staind they totally rocked the house...

Been up since 7am, really tired. Really pissed...had a great day up until 10 min ago and now im going to atempt to sleep

Just walked in the door from Brendons house...guess going to see him wasnt a good idea....

Blah. anyhow, im a little sleepy considering it's 4 am i guess thats normal. Goodnight to all.

PS I totally forgot to mention that im gonna be a mommy soon....well sortta anyhow...My girlfried is pregnet...LOL So yeah this next year should be interesting to say the least.

so i guess im getting ready to be lonely again.... ::Sighs:: Sometimes i think that i was just ment to forever be lonely. The past week was fun though. I actually smiled a whole bunch. I just got off the phone with "M" I havent talked to hime since early monday morning....so it was nice to hear his voice.

T droped me off mediine last...
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Why is it that everytime something good happens or things start getting better, something really bad happens and life sucks again...they say that without the bad you couldnt enjoy the good...well i think thats a crock of shit! I am so sick of everything right now.... Im so sick of all the he said she said they said crap!!! I dont care who said what...
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So im am alone for about the next 10 min till he gets back. and i have to ask myself...WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING? Sometimes i wonder if i just feel bad for being happy...for sortta moving on...even though thats not exactly what im doing, but for shorter purposes i guess im kinda moving on...with my life at least....It's just Everytime i take a...
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I got my tree today. its pretty. blah! Today has been blah! He left early tonight because he wasnt feeling well or something....or because of me im not sure which, probably a combanition of the two...at the time i sortta wanted him to go, but now i wish he had stayed...oh well.

Got to her "t's" voice tonight.....what good did that do me...not much...Oh yeah...
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sometimes just when i think all is lost, something really good happens, and then i'm like "oh great, now once again things can get worse" lol so much for looking on the bright side.

Lots of sleep lately, and snuggles, happy for the moment. Much love to mi amor, thats redundant but oh well. Goodnight.

All smiles tonight. and nothing to do with him...that makes me very sad in a way and happy in another. Perhaps i will be all smiles tomorrow too. goodnight

So if you ever want to know how to fuck up your life...just ask me..cuz i seem to be doing a pretty damn good job of WRECKING mine beyond fixing

long day, good but long. I went to the club with Julia tonight...a first for me, i will admit i kinda had fun..... It was different and there were hella people there, but i think i enjoyed myself. Got to see him today.... ahhhh and circles with us as usual....perhaps on one of these go-arounds i will figure something out. good night