AN IDEA OF HOW LONG I HAVE BEEN LIKE THIS:
an entry from March 22 2005:
"No matter what i do its wrong. no matter what i say or dont say its wrong, and i piss you off and i hurt and i dont know what to do- I dont want to lose you but i dont know how to change what i feel. I dont know what to do. Please. i just dont want to hurt anymore i dont want to upset you. I am so sorry that i bring burdens to your life, and im sorry that im not good enough for youi am trying to be- i am trying to be what you want me to be, and im sorry that i cant be- god i just want to be with you- i just want the tears to stop. i want the pain to stop, please just take away the pain"
So yeah....7 months latter, im still saying the EXACT SAME THING!!!!!! Why the hell dont i learn....and i still wont learn...im sure months from now ill look back and go "WOW TIFFANY YOUR SURE A DUMBASS!!!" AHHHHH!!!!! Yup circles!!!!
an entry from March 22 2005:
"No matter what i do its wrong. no matter what i say or dont say its wrong, and i piss you off and i hurt and i dont know what to do- I dont want to lose you but i dont know how to change what i feel. I dont know what to do. Please. i just dont want to hurt anymore i dont want to upset you. I am so sorry that i bring burdens to your life, and im sorry that im not good enough for youi am trying to be- i am trying to be what you want me to be, and im sorry that i cant be- god i just want to be with you- i just want the tears to stop. i want the pain to stop, please just take away the pain"
So yeah....7 months latter, im still saying the EXACT SAME THING!!!!!! Why the hell dont i learn....and i still wont learn...im sure months from now ill look back and go "WOW TIFFANY YOUR SURE A DUMBASS!!!" AHHHHH!!!!! Yup circles!!!!