lexxus

I am sad again tonight. Lonely as always. "It's really hard living when your living with yourself." Ah how singers and songwriters can always have the exact right lyrics to make you feel like they are singing about you...

Got to see him today...should be happy yet im not. I Think for the breif time he was here i was content but he always leaves...so the time i get with him is wasted on knowing he'll be walking out the door soon, and going home to her...

I believe i am way to smart to be in the situation that i have put myself in, and if anyone else were in my spot, i know i would tell them its not worth it and to just walk away...so why dont i?? Why do i tell myself that my situation is different from the thousands of others who have gone through the same thing....Perhaps i will be strong enough to walk away eventually, but i doubt it. Well off to bed, or at least im going to try... maybe tonight i won't have nightmares... I've almost forgotten what a good dream is.
~lexie~