ohhhh lordy. .. friday i will be 21
and maybe no one knows what this means to me. ...
but basically
it means,
the WORLD. ..
i have made it s0o0o0o very far.
SO FAR!
It would blow your mind if you even knew.
I hope it's an awesome birthday and i have a super good time. ..
really i do hope so.
My mother is a uhm. ... well
whatever in your mind that you can think of. .. the most manipulative
horrible minded
hurtful
and sick
emotionally abusive
person
that you can think of. .. . ...
whoever that is in your life. ... it is her
in mine.
she. . ... has tried to break me down and hurt me tonite. .. by holding my two borthers who are 6 and 12. .. all three of us
have different fathers. .. .
not that it truley matters
but YOU know it does. .. .
she wont let me see them.
it doesnt hurt
as i expect this truley from her
and i let her be
and accept that she will never fill in the relationship i lack and need of mother. ..
but im fine and i will
I WILL
truck along. ..
it's all i know how to do. ..
but tonite. .. is over and tomorrow is new.
THANX
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It's amazing what we can survive.
Hang in there--you have so many more years to look forward to and congrats on turning 21! Put everything behind you for one day and celebrate yourself and everything you have accomplished.