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lexie

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some days I feel older

Dec 30, 2013
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But I never quite feel like my age.

I often forget I can post clothed photos on here. I mean, why have a shirt on when you can see some nipple instead?

It's strange for me to think that 2013 is coming to a close. I recently went through some old photos I have hanging around from 2006-2008. I'm not quite sure what I was doing with myself, let alone my life, back then but I'm hardly recognizable to myself. I see the photo, I acknowledge it's me, but beyond that I can't relate to the girl staring back at me.

For one, shaved eyebrows? I spent a fortune on eyebrow pencils. I also apparently never ate and didn't have any boobs to speak of. I still dress in all black and give myself at home haircuts.

In my own way I'll be saying goodbye to the year that's passed. A lot of ups, but mostly mid level downs.

An up. I started my own business and it's taken off. I have another more creative side business I run in my spare time and am completely self sufficient without having to rely on a salaried paycheck or taking orders from "the man".

A down. The love of my life was diagnosed with chronic heart failure and she's on heavy medication daily to stabilize her. She's been with me since she was but a tiny baby that fit in my hand. Every day I'm blessed I still have her in my life.

Another down. I lost my sex drive somewhere around 8 months ago. If found please return to me.

An up. I caught the tattoo bug and haven't stopped.

And a down. I've felt isolated and generally at a lose of self most of the year.

How about an up? I'm still breathing, tomorrow is another day, and time will keep moving whether you want it to or not.

xo

VIEW 16 of 16 COMMENTS
lord_renob:
First and foremost you have my sympathies on the diagnosis.  And I hope you find that sex drive sometime early this year, and that'll be but one of many ups this year to come. :-)
Jan 2, 2014
starlastarlove:
hey dear, sending you much love <3 yknow i still have the little owl drawing you sent me in the mail on my fridge :) I never forget about you :) xoxo
Jan 11, 2014

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