I'm back.

Thank you everyone, it may sound silly but you've really helped me through this. I've since stopped smoking cigarettes. I've started seeing a therapist and I'm not quite sure what to think yet so I'll give it some time. I was sober for 4 days and slipped last night. My sister and her bf of 7 years dumped her. She didn't force me to drink but I'm weak and I did. I don't know that I can do this by myself. I've thought about rehab but I would have to miss school for that and I would be away from my family. The best I can do is try. Once again, thanks.

Love Moni

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