letranger

I was worried that I was developing a crush on a new Brazilian female worker at my job. She's pretty, smart, artsy, and extremely nice. And married. But she and I clicked instantly and we have a lot in common. I think we just enjoy each other's company a lot and honestly she's one of the coolest people I've met in a long time.

So when I started talking to my friends outside of work about this new Brazilian girl and how cool she was, they responded with " Somebody's in looooooove". And I started thinking....am I developing feelings for this married woman? To which I had to respond, (thinking of course, not out-loud) yeah, a little bit.

But then a weird thing happened. I said to myself, ' she's married...you can't have her', and just like that I didn't have a crush on her anymore. It was like I just turned off an emotional tap and instantaneously my feelings changed.

Which is good. Because who wants to be in love with a married person? But at the same time...a bit scary, that I have so much control over my emotions, like a wizard...poof they're gone.