I can't wait until I have something good to write about but unfortunately now is not one of those times. Now I'm just writing because its something to do and I'm having trouble falling asleep. Today I realized that my boss is completely wacko and that since she promoted one of her kiss ass followers to team lead that my work life is becoming a total hell.
I feel like I'm slipping into a really negative state of mind and period of my life and I'm trying to fight it but it isn't easy. I'm disappointed with many things.
The one aspect of my life that I was excited about recently was that I was in a new band. Music has always been sort of a drug for me and the one thing that I've always turned to to find beauty and joy in my life. But quickly I'm already disappointed with even that because I'm learning that the leader of the band wants me to play only bit parts and mainly keyboard at that, hardly any guitar...which is my main instrument.
Of course I can do stuff on my own so I dont want to get overly dramatic about it but I wanted to play guitar in this band because I thought it sounded really good and it made me happy to be playing again in a band.
Also the thing with the girl at work seems to have fizzled out without anything to even write about so thats lame too. I did meet a new girl at a friend's birthday party over the weekend but as of yet she hasn't returned my call from earlier tonight. She's only 23 so she probably got weirded out when I added her on myspace and saw that im 12 years older than her. its funny how it didnt seem like there was an age difference at all.
I feel like I'm slipping into a really negative state of mind and period of my life and I'm trying to fight it but it isn't easy. I'm disappointed with many things.
The one aspect of my life that I was excited about recently was that I was in a new band. Music has always been sort of a drug for me and the one thing that I've always turned to to find beauty and joy in my life. But quickly I'm already disappointed with even that because I'm learning that the leader of the band wants me to play only bit parts and mainly keyboard at that, hardly any guitar...which is my main instrument.
Of course I can do stuff on my own so I dont want to get overly dramatic about it but I wanted to play guitar in this band because I thought it sounded really good and it made me happy to be playing again in a band.
Also the thing with the girl at work seems to have fizzled out without anything to even write about so thats lame too. I did meet a new girl at a friend's birthday party over the weekend but as of yet she hasn't returned my call from earlier tonight. She's only 23 so she probably got weirded out when I added her on myspace and saw that im 12 years older than her. its funny how it didnt seem like there was an age difference at all.