lesslies

So...
Things aren't going so good.
I was suppose to get kicked out of my house for my navel piercing(yeah! rediculous I know!)...
But that didn't happen...YET!
So I guess thats good.

But...
I just haven't been very good feeling lately...And I know that sentence didn't go together very well but I didn't know how else to put it...Because its not like I can say I haven't felt well lately because then it sounds like I'm sick, but I'm not. My soul just hasn't felt like it usually does. And not my soul in some religous way, but my soul as in MYSELF, ME, my PERSONALITY...My entire BEING.

So...
I'm trying to figure out whats wrong. I think its because I'm not use to NOT having a male counterpart to talk to every night or call right after something bad happens when I need to talk. And it sucks because all these people I know are like, oh you're so amazing, you're so this, you're so that...and how can I believe them when no one I want to really be with thinks the same? Then their explanation to that is...Oh they're stupid for not liking you or whatever...And of course I have no feelings for the guys telling me this stuff.

But...
What can ya do? ... Nothing ... That was a rhetorical question ... So why did I answer it? ... Don't answer that.

So...
On goes life. Work and School-reading the Canterbury Tales...Theres nothing else for me to do right now. I'm kicking ass in work(like it matters we don't work on commision)...And I'm getting no where in my school lessons...Online classes without deadlines are NOT for me.

That is all.
<3
Les(s)lie(s)