lessismore

sunday bloody sunday

called out of work again today. met some guy from friendster last nite, very interesting. haven't ever met anyone off the internet. i wasn't AS nervous as i expected, but that was only because we didn't talk until he messaged me saying he was in town and didn't have shit to do here.

i talked to my ex of four years last nite. i needed beer so i called him up. it was the first time since we'd actually SEEN eachother and been able to look in to eachothers eyes. it was very fucked up. you can feel there's still something SO strong there. just is it worth it? i don't know. never will.

i should have accomplished things today. i should have done laundry. should have watered the plants. should have cleaned the house, but instead i slept until about three pm. it's been a while. i stayed up until about 7 this morning talking to my ex. it was nice.

he made me cry. he touched my face and said ... you are so beautiful. don't let anyone tell you different...
man. it was difficult at times.
tonite im going to drink, if you could imagine that. sounds like fun. im oh so addicted to http://www.friendster.com it's ridiculous. hahaha. im such a loser.