lenny007

Being depressed sucks, but it is surprising just how much Viva La Bam can cheer me up, I'm very happy that that show exists indeed.

It's always dark, it never gets light.

If you ever see light it always gets taken away when you get comfortable with it.

I so wish for brightness but it never arrives.

Maybe one day something will make sense.

I just hope someday that someone will see me instead of look through me.

If, just if...

I met a girl last night, I got her number, I got a date this afternoon before the Distillers concert tonight. I'm doing my best Chandler Bing dance. She's called Elaine, she's really pretty. That's about all I remember cos I was pretty drunk, but she seemed pretty cool over the phone earlier. I was gonna stay in last night too, so glad Goff &...
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This just seems so apt at this moment in time...

You called me up last night in tears and said you missed me after all these
years
But Ive been waiting here so long, Ive gotten over it since you've been gone
You called me late last night again and said you're finished with your new
boyfriend
Asked if you could come back home- so...
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I think I upset Ruth last night. I invited her to come out with us and she couldn't get a lift down and I never told her when I was going so I could have gone and met her so she couldn't come down in the end. I think she felt like I didn't think she was important enough for me to want her there...
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Met up with Ruthie last night straight after work, ain't saw her since Dec 23rd. Amz and Daz were running late so we went for something to eat and I just enjoyed talking to her so much, I'd forgotten how much fun she is to talk to. We always seem to get on immensely when it's just me and her then it seems to degenerate...
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So I was talking online to Ruthie last night and she is so down about herself. I wish I was the one who could make her happy. I know I could if I was given the chance cos I do genuinely love her. I don't get to see her much though which makes me sad. Looks like I'm gonna be sad for a long time....
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Jackie at work is unbelivably awesome, she's gorgeous, funny, cool, has a very cute smile. She even thinks I am funny! That's a very rare combination. Life fucking sucks man! Dunno if she's on Ruth levels of worship though, although she does seem a lot more mature than Ruth, plus she has a proper job and a decent work ethic, which is always a plus,...
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OK there's a new girl at work called Jackie. She lives 2 streets away from me. She is gorgeous. She is engaged. I hate the fickle finger of fate. Oh well, back to the drawing board.

Hey what's the big deal?
Tell me how to feel?
I know where we boomeranged and fell from grace.
Point me to the stars I'm up for the chase....
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I look forward to weekends so much cos of no work, then I get bored shitless when they arrive.

I'm sorry to inform you, sometimes love can deform you