lenny007

I think I upset Ruth last night. I invited her to come out with us and she couldn't get a lift down and I never told her when I was going so I could have gone and met her so she couldn't come down in the end. I think she felt like I didn't think she was important enough for me to want her there or something, I feel really bad about it. I'd have loved to have seen her again last night. Twice in 2 nights would have been a huge honour.

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK! Why can't she be mine?

I should be in a good mood today, last night was a laugh, although I wished she had have been there. And today has been good, Daz came down here first thing this morning and we played video games for a while then Harsh and Hemant came down so we listened to the footie commentary whilst messing about on the PS2 then we went down to Riley's to get some food and shoot some pool. God I'm shite at pool, always a good laugh though. Played for about 4 hours whilst watching lots of footie. Ipswich/Wigan (what a goal from Teale) and then Madrid/Malaga (what a goal from Carlos). Just got back now so I have had an awesome day. Andy is coming down tomorrow too so I'm seeing enough of my friends, just not seeing enough of Ruth, in every sense really. I wish I could alter fate so she'd be with me.

So here I am
Looking older all the time
Growing older all the time
Feeling younger in my mind