lelio

I havent been able to sleep in for almost 2 months now, there was the one time in motel 6 where i slept till 10 but that was after going to sleep at 6am . anyway, its a big night tonight cuz i goto sleep knowing i can do so for a full 12 hours if I so desire. and i probably will, im very excited, but nervous as well, what if ive lost the ability? what if i wake up at 7:30 and i go get a glass of Ice water and then i dont feel like going back to sleep? like i feel the need to go and do something productive when i dont have to on a saturday morning. Ive seen people like this before and I dont wanna be like them, theyre so sad.... oh please god let my laziness persist!