lelaina

i cant help but feel ive made the wrong decision in coming here. bu all means italy is nice, by nice i just mean nice. its not home. i know ppl from upon those who see nothing outside the suare they live in. but ive been to approx 15 countries and there isnt anywhere i prefer than good old australia. i dont care what you think, its just how i feel.

it would be so much easier just to take in country, not having to deal with trying to establish a relationship that begun over a year ago. things have changed. i truely thought it would be easy. fall straight back into how i felt previously. but its just not that simple.

yes im contemplating going home. there wasnt much here for me to begin with minus tim. do i hang around and waste cash ina place that just doesnt do anything for me?? i feel so shit. this was meant to be magic. and it isnt. no matter which angle i look a it from. its just not where i want to be.

i know so many of you will look at me shamefully. but i cant help how i feel about things.

believe me. no-one is more disappointed than myself. and that hurts so much..........