lelaina

~ on a light note ~

life has been floating along nicely.i went down the coast the other night to spend time with my parents. it was soooo good to have a change of scenery, i need that, often, it gives me a renewed apprecaition of where i live. (or at least prevents me from being serisouly bored )

something strange my mother said......."here's hemorrhoid cream, put it under your eyes, it stops ageing" er....no Ma, but thanks

i saw this whilst shopping, such a pretty colour (sorry about the phone camera)


i like these must be my inner bogan yes, i have an inner bogan


PLASTIC FANTASTIC
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hehehehe what a name for a kids snack


i went out with my boy Boombambi on sunday. i had the yummiest lunch, he's the yummiest thing, oh yeah, and i had a coffee sunday too


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~ on a darker note ~

i wasnt joking, life has been floating along great, but today ive hit a wall.


yep, just like that.

last night i had serious nightmares. so much so, that every few minutes id wake up in a sweat and burst into tears. this went on from 3am till 8am. i finally decided to get up, cause each time id fall asleep it would take me right back to where the dream left off. why cant good dreams be like this?? i got up, had a shower and realised that today my job is just too hard. hard in the fact that greeting customers with excitement when you dont even know them is not how i wish to spend a day where all i want to do is love myself back to a smile. i have no energy to give anyone. not today anyway.

what was the nightmare?? that i cant say, i dont want it written so i can ever read it again. it just hurt. so so fucking much, that everytime i think about it i cry. something must have caused this. well yeah, it did. but thats something else i dont want rewminding of. sorry for an anit climax. im not good at letting others know when things arent right. i just feel like an exposed nerve.

so my day today??

hmmmm nice makeup. sounds weird, but it will make me feel a billion times better.

music - She Wants Revenge. feeds my little dark side. yes, i have one. geez, did you think i could bounce around constantly saying yay?? 90% of the time i can, but no, not today. my dark side is comforting in some fucked up way that only i (and maybe one or two friends) will understand. yes, i have an inner goth too

She Wants Revenge - "Written In Blood"

^^i couldnt put the video straight here, too much sexual content according to youtube. SEX!?! god forbid!! the link will take you there

a movie - yep, im taking myself to the flicks. but im seeing something happy, things can spiral if i keep it too dark. thats been proven.

chocolate. my boy got me to appreciate this. sounds silly that someone doesnt like chocolate?? id never really thought about it. lollies though, are a different story....

cigarrettes - yeah i gave up a year ago, but today is an exception.

Nacho - lots of hugs from the cutuest thing on earth.


tomorrow will be brighter. im sure of it. cause normally when i feel like this id be destructive, but im choosing not to be, and for some reason thats harder, but i know the outcome will be better *sighs*

to lighten the end of my journal, something funny



so how are you feeling?? light or dark??

over and out