lelaina

today's a weird day. well, it is for me. easter is the anniversary to alot of bullshit, maybe i should say hardship, thats happened to me over the years. i broke my back in a car accident in 1994 and was told i may not be able to walk again. i made it through and im pretty much fighting fit (which i am forever thankful). then this time last year i wasnt a happy camper. its nothing i wish to go into, but lets just say ive come along way over the past 12 months and im really fucking proud of myself. im glad i wrote that, that im proud, cause sometimes i know im too hard on myself and have seriously high expectations of myself and others. so its good to see i guess that i am proud of myself. pfft! this probably isnt making much sense to most of you DOESNT MATTER!! i guess ive just got alot of stirred up emotions today, i can feel it in my tummy, that churning uncomfotable thing i get. yeah that.

i worked most of easter so that kept me busy. ive tried as hard as possible to stay out of harms way this time. its just an unfortunate tme of year for me i suppose??

i had a nice time at Straddie. it was soooo good to see Nacho. ive missed him.........



im going now to surround myself with good people and a scoob. and in a few hours ill feel much better. hugs are appreciated

~ Lelaina xx