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Saturday Feb 08, 2003

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I can't sleep.
I couldn't sleep all night.
I finally gave up and took a hot bath.
My mother's alarm is going off, but I don't feel like starting the day.
I want to write letters that I never send.
I miss my friends alot.
Sometimes I am afraid.
Random poetry is running through my head.
Today is the nine of swords.

Last night I had milk and cookies and idly skimmed the classifieds looking for work. I ate comfort food and listened to my mother whisper soft familiar lullabies from my childhood. I think if there is no rain today then I will rake leaves and till the soil for my garden. It is warm enough and we are past the freeze.
It will be ok.
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leiru13:
I'm pretty sure it will be ok. I just needed to do the things that I do to get out of it- call my best friends, a few of the people who know me best, call my people in portland to hear familiar voices, eat comfort food, and remember that I've made it through more diffucult stuff than depression... Also gossip from back home doesn't hurt.. If it were a little warmer a bike ride would be in order. Exercise always makes me feel clean and alive.


[Edited on Feb 08, 2003]
Feb 8, 2003
snag:
when i discharged from the army...they neglected to take their gas mask. i held onto it...

now i'm kinda glad i did
Feb 8, 2003

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