These two are damn hot and they did a superhot set together-- they get to appear in my journal again.
Have been feeling really guilty about not doing more to help my friend before he committed suicide in November, but I've finally come to terms with it this week.
I decided that it wasn't like I wanted him to commit suicide- if I knew what was on his mind I would've definitely done all I could to help, but I didn't so I didn't. What happened was really sad, but there's no point in me spending the rest of my life feeling guilty and beating myself over what I did or didn't do and more importantly what he chose to do by himself- I have to move on and learn from my mistakes so I don't waste my life because my friend chose to waste his own. I'm not angry with him, but I do need to distance myself from his actions.
So that's one good thing.
Seeing loooaaads of friends at uni was another good thing. That really picked up my spirits- lots of people reminding me how much they love and miss me is really good when your self-worth has taken a bit of a pasting in recent months.
Oh, and this afternoon I saw the girl I took a shine to at uni in April before I left for Sweden. She's been really busy with her disertation and I've not taken it personally that she didn't have time to meet up this week. She works in a coffeehouse that I went into with a friend today- we had a quick chat over the counter, caught up on the general scheme of each other's lives and we're both looking forward to September. I think we're just friends, but we'll see where things go in September, I suppose.
One more thing that made me happy-- I'm not only going to see Jimmy Eat World (I feel bad abbreviating that to J.E.W.) on Monday at an instore-- one of my friends rang me yesterday and told me she has a spare ticket to see a full concert on Tuesday! Awooga!!
Back in London now. I should be in bed- brother's stag do (bachelor party) starts in about 8 hours, but I wanted to update and tell everyone I'm feeling happy(er).
Have been feeling really guilty about not doing more to help my friend before he committed suicide in November, but I've finally come to terms with it this week.
I decided that it wasn't like I wanted him to commit suicide- if I knew what was on his mind I would've definitely done all I could to help, but I didn't so I didn't. What happened was really sad, but there's no point in me spending the rest of my life feeling guilty and beating myself over what I did or didn't do and more importantly what he chose to do by himself- I have to move on and learn from my mistakes so I don't waste my life because my friend chose to waste his own. I'm not angry with him, but I do need to distance myself from his actions.
So that's one good thing.
Seeing loooaaads of friends at uni was another good thing. That really picked up my spirits- lots of people reminding me how much they love and miss me is really good when your self-worth has taken a bit of a pasting in recent months.
Oh, and this afternoon I saw the girl I took a shine to at uni in April before I left for Sweden. She's been really busy with her disertation and I've not taken it personally that she didn't have time to meet up this week. She works in a coffeehouse that I went into with a friend today- we had a quick chat over the counter, caught up on the general scheme of each other's lives and we're both looking forward to September. I think we're just friends, but we'll see where things go in September, I suppose.
One more thing that made me happy-- I'm not only going to see Jimmy Eat World (I feel bad abbreviating that to J.E.W.) on Monday at an instore-- one of my friends rang me yesterday and told me she has a spare ticket to see a full concert on Tuesday! Awooga!!
Back in London now. I should be in bed- brother's stag do (bachelor party) starts in about 8 hours, but I wanted to update and tell everyone I'm feeling happy(er).
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and yes i'm staying with my really good friends...
on a related note, I wanted to share with you that I found someone.