Haven't updated for a few days; haven't really had anything exciting to write about. It's not that I've been too depressed to write, it's just that my life has been quite boring, which is no bad thing...
Went to a friend of a friend's place on NYE- didn't know why and still don't. Enjoyed it, but it was just a party; nothing special.
Sara, the girl I made out with before Christmas got back in touch with me last night, which made me very
Says her phone was broken over Christmas/NY & she was away so she couldn't fix it. We texted a bit today, which was nice, but after all my fretting, I'm not sure we're a great match- she's a great girl, but I'm not sure we're really on each other's wavelength. Maybe we just need to get to know each other... shame I'm in the wrong country for that.
Last week's stuff is about the same- the only thing that's changed is that J's sister has come back from Barbados and is with the family (I know nothing more than that), which has eased J's mind a little.
I'm not sure what the deal is with our pregnant friend- I don't feel like I'm in the right place to be asking right now. I'm not sure why, but J seemed to be giving her a bit of room too- maybe she was just taking a break from being her shoulder-to-cry-on.
I discovered that my friend that committed suicide died only a couple of weeks after I last saw him, which made it a bit more uncomfortable that I didn't speak to him. I really don't know where I am with it all- I'm not sure if I'm numb or if I've rationalised it so it doesn't hurt. I guess I'll figure it out sooner or later. My friends seem to be treating it like old news already- I guess it's good they're moving on, but I'd like to be able to talk to one of them about it.
Came back to Sweden today.
Have been reading Anthony Kiedis' autobigraphy and watching "Sid and Nancy" on DVD this week. I've found it really interesting, 'cos they are so completely different from me and I don't really want to be them at all, but finding out about them challenges me to get out of the sensible mould I've fitted into.
Went to a friend of a friend's place on NYE- didn't know why and still don't. Enjoyed it, but it was just a party; nothing special.
Sara, the girl I made out with before Christmas got back in touch with me last night, which made me very

Last week's stuff is about the same- the only thing that's changed is that J's sister has come back from Barbados and is with the family (I know nothing more than that), which has eased J's mind a little.
I'm not sure what the deal is with our pregnant friend- I don't feel like I'm in the right place to be asking right now. I'm not sure why, but J seemed to be giving her a bit of room too- maybe she was just taking a break from being her shoulder-to-cry-on.
I discovered that my friend that committed suicide died only a couple of weeks after I last saw him, which made it a bit more uncomfortable that I didn't speak to him. I really don't know where I am with it all- I'm not sure if I'm numb or if I've rationalised it so it doesn't hurt. I guess I'll figure it out sooner or later. My friends seem to be treating it like old news already- I guess it's good they're moving on, but I'd like to be able to talk to one of them about it.
Came back to Sweden today.
Have been reading Anthony Kiedis' autobigraphy and watching "Sid and Nancy" on DVD this week. I've found it really interesting, 'cos they are so completely different from me and I don't really want to be them at all, but finding out about them challenges me to get out of the sensible mould I've fitted into.
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I wish I could be more like that.