Next spring, I will have been on SG for 10 years. TEN. Now, I've been on and off, along the way, but I still find it hard to grasp that I've been an adult for over 10 years, let alone on this site that long.
This week I've been reading back through my old blog posts, and it's funny reading the stuff from when I was 21,22,23. I remember writing it and some of the stuff that was going on, but it's like reading someone else's blog too. Even though I didn't feel like I fit in very well at the time, the content reminds me of a lot of the younger members' blogs on here now, and it kinda reminds me that I was actually just a normal kid with big aspirations. I didn't see it at the time, either, but I was a cute kid too- I was so caught up in my stuff that I didn't realise that I was pretty popular at the time and there were loads of girls flirting with me... I'm kinda kicking myself now that I didn't make the most of it!
I miss people like HolyMountain_, kharnalbloodlust, pixie_punch, Ciel and CeCe and I wish I'd realised and told them how much they carried me through some tough times before.
I'm also realising how many spelling mistakes I made for a language student.
Reading back through it all has been challenging. It's reminded me where I've come from and put things in perspective. It's made me take stock of my life now and ask myself if where I'm at in my life is where I would have wanted to be 10 years ago, and if I could be happier or more fulfilled by doing now what I dreamed of back then, before bills and responsibilities became some kind of boss of me...
It's an ongoing process, of course. There's a song I've been listening to a bit recently that I thought should mean something to me, but hasn't quite landed until this week. I'll leave you with it (if the YouTube link works, of course)...
This week I've been reading back through my old blog posts, and it's funny reading the stuff from when I was 21,22,23. I remember writing it and some of the stuff that was going on, but it's like reading someone else's blog too. Even though I didn't feel like I fit in very well at the time, the content reminds me of a lot of the younger members' blogs on here now, and it kinda reminds me that I was actually just a normal kid with big aspirations. I didn't see it at the time, either, but I was a cute kid too- I was so caught up in my stuff that I didn't realise that I was pretty popular at the time and there were loads of girls flirting with me... I'm kinda kicking myself now that I didn't make the most of it!
I miss people like HolyMountain_, kharnalbloodlust, pixie_punch, Ciel and CeCe and I wish I'd realised and told them how much they carried me through some tough times before.
I'm also realising how many spelling mistakes I made for a language student.
Reading back through it all has been challenging. It's reminded me where I've come from and put things in perspective. It's made me take stock of my life now and ask myself if where I'm at in my life is where I would have wanted to be 10 years ago, and if I could be happier or more fulfilled by doing now what I dreamed of back then, before bills and responsibilities became some kind of boss of me...
It's an ongoing process, of course. There's a song I've been listening to a bit recently that I thought should mean something to me, but hasn't quite landed until this week. I'll leave you with it (if the YouTube link works, of course)...
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marcybeth:
Only 6 years here for me, but I completely relate - looking back at my first blogs, my first tattoos, my clothing and hair styles....things I cared about.... it's like a different person. Congrats on growing up! haha -
pinkie_:
Just over 6 years for me, too, I think. I don't ever look back: it's too harrowing!
