lefthandright

i logged onto msn last night and my ex girlfriend was online. i chatted to her for abit...the usual friendly stuff...then she told me that she was angry and sad at the moment because i am having fun in my life now. She was kinda pisted at the fact that i have started taking tango lessons with a very sexy girl....that i am trying to change my job that always keeps me away at nights....that i have completely altered my old emo style into a new look( evil cowboy) that women are asking me out on dates...that my social activity has increased ten fold......the fact of the matter is that when we broke up i admitted for awhile now that i realised that i had been depressed for the best part of the year, and that i was so deeply sorry that i had become an introverted potato in the relationship for the last period of time....and that if she was prepared to hang in there that my attitude had changed....that i had suddenly woke up with my eyes open and that i wanted my life back...to do stuff again...to be more social than ever...to learn all the shit i always wanted to know,but hadn't learnt yet.....she claimed that she needed her space and wasn't too sure how she felt about being ina relationship when she knew she needed her space and was trying to get career off the ground. And now that iam living alone and absolutely loving my life again and basically being an all round good cunt...she feels sad and angry.....part of me feels gutted that the break up came up at such an unfortunate time...i did used to be inlove with her...and will always love her in many ways....but also part of me regretably feels happy in that success is the best revenge ...it sounds weak and pathetic i know....but ididi say that this was gonna happen with me...and now that is has, if she feels unhappy about current situation...well that is not my problem.

on a high buzz though...my most favourite band in the entire world has added me as a friend on their myspace blogg.

fianlly broken my cowboy boots in.

my new bed has still not been fucked in......................................yet.


i have developed a new relationship with pinot noir....that shit gets me zero to pished in 20mins...i am such a cheap date.

my air guitar is becoming quiet accurate and believable.