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So I've been listening to a lot of Aesop Rock lately, it helps get my mind off things. I uploaded tons of old pictures from the old computer, and i'm gonna post a bunch in my candids right now...check em out.

I'm lonely. I still don't know anyone up here really. Though apparently, a "bunch of people" want to meet me, I've never seen or heard from these people. It's pretty hard starting from scratch...because i don't knwo where to go, and I've never been the best at introducing myself. Wait. That's a fucking lie. I was good at it at one point.

So tomorrow I'm gonna go to the mall and buy a new dvd and hopefully cruise by Cosmic Cat and pick up some stuff that wasn't pulled back in Fort Myers...like Punisher MAX and see if they have any Wanted #1's.

I've been getting a lot of compliments from girls on my lips lately...what the fuck?

Back to the lonley thing, it's going to clear up soon. It's just a metter of waiting. Next weekend I'm meeting up with some people from the Tallahassee LJ Community. Saturday, I think, Mandi's going to come over and we're going to watch a ton of movies...Secret of Nimh, Neverending Story, Old School, and a bunch of others I can't think of right now. And the following weekend Canadian Heather is coming down to visit for a week.

And I just don't know what to think about anything now.

I've tried cutting myself off from her, but I can't do it completely, and it's all "catching up" now. It hurts incredibly bad, and when the whole thing was happening, I could brush it off like nothing. And it's sad, because if she was around and she came back I would take her back in a second, even though I know it would be the wrong thing to do...to set myself up to get hurt. It doesn't seem fair...she could do whatever she wanted and walk away from it. I try to do whats right and to be the good boyfriend and I get caught on fire. It feels like a stake being driven through my chest.

Aesop Rock, Aesop Rock, Aesop Rock...