leavesofdestiny

you'd think things would eventually get better, and i'm sure they will, but for now, times are rough, i begin' week 5 of the great c-word adventure tomorrow, and i must admit things in that area are goin' pretty well, the time is blazin' by, but it's still so hard to handle having to leave home at the end of the weekend, that and troubles on the future front, i'm just generaly confused as to what i should be doing, like i have 3 people inside of me, the one who cares about money, the one who cares about working at a job he loves, and the one that fantasizes about a different world all together where he'd be lucky enough to be a book collector and talk to faeries, feel the magic in his life in a more physical sense than he can now, and hopefully those 3 can reconcile their differences quick, because the fork in the road looms ever closer, as the first round of exams start, and i begin to pine over the lost time spent in nantucket, maybe another year... this is such a hard year, and i still know not exactly why i'm doing it, but i am, so i will press on... i will press on...